As usual I can’t sleep so I figured I’d do a short update here. I’m watching a hilarious and dare I say touching episode of Kenny Hotz’s Triumph of the Will. Kenny’s trying to find his 75 year old mother love. Is it creepy to say I think she’s beautiful for 75?  I’m also having a minor break out of hives from stress. Great. It’s been a strange week; it started with an absolute disaster at work on Monday. I’ve gone out to drink twice already this week as well; on one occasion a hipster girl sat down with me and struck up a conversation, and on another I bumped into a girl I used to gawk at back in grade 11.  Apparently I’m “obviously from Osborne village”. I wasn’t sure if that was a compliment or an insult. Gay karaoke night was surprisingly busy and even more conspicuously lacking in drag queens. My mom called today and apparently thought I was dead. My phone’s been on and off all month and apparently she’s been calling me for 3 weeks. Oops. Thanks for calling the authorities though mom, jeez I would have been disposed of in the Assiniboine for weeks by now. Ah I also tried to get a gym pass this week but Snap ended their 8.95 trial-month promotion. Looks like I need to wait until next pay period then.

I’m still depressed as shit and moping my lonely ass around the house randomly touching things and looking out the window. Seriously, put a wig on me and get a camera with a filter to shoot me through. This could be a Prozac commercial. Anyways, because I’m moody here’s a song that makes me sad.

 

Canadian researchers have made a pretty big step forward in the battle against AIDS.

Work was terrible today. I feel like this line of work is really getting to me. Instead of feeling good about what I do I just get beat down by the heartbreaking things I see. The worst is that it’s seriously lacking in any sort of recognition or thanks. I just wanted to come home tonight crawl into bed and have someone lay with me and tell me it’s ok and I’m doing the right thing. I might take some time off.

I could listen to classic Matthew Good for infinity right now.

So I walked aimlessly around downtown for a couple hours tonight. Don’t really know what else to do with myself but staying at home is driving me crazy. I bought a lotto ticket because why not, maybe karma will even things out for me. I could just up and leave this city for a bit. It’s never been anything but miserable for me during the holidays since I moved here. If I win I’m taking all you folks on vacation somewhere with me.

On the way home this was playing on the radio and it was almost too much

 

Well it wouldn’t be the holiday season in Winnipeg without my annual dose of heartbreak. Today was terrible. I guess I have some extra motivation to get that gym pass tomorrow.

I’ve now taken to walking around my house doing weird shit on the verge of a panic attack. This course seems like it will hinge completely on which long answer questions are asked. I could do great or terrible based on what is asked.

*Update* I’ve begun to talk to myself…

*Update* s:DOfuhaslodfiuh